Sometimes I really hate having A.D.D.
It sucks big time. And I don't know if it's that or I'm just lazy. The worst part is that even with help; I still get bad grades in school. I still take 2 hours to get ready every morning. I still am annoying the crap out of my parents. I still feel sick at night. I still get headaches. I still stay on the computer too long. I still stay up too late. I still barely get out the door at 8:00-8:10, when I have to be at school at 8:15. I'm just getting myself into the trouble I was in last year.
What's wrong with me? It makes me so friggen mad how people can do things like a normal person and at a normal time, but I can't. I want to be able to get good grades. I want to be able to get ready in less than an hour. Why is it so easy for other people? I just don't understand why I'm so slow and stupid. Might as well be in freakn special ed classes.
Whatever. I don't want to be like this anymore. I want to change. I hate being in trouble all the time. I hate that a lot of the time that my parents talk to me is about my grades being low. I want to be able to talk about the fun or good things that happen at school, but there's just not a lot of that anymore. To all my friends I've changed over the summer and I've been a real jerk to them. It's not like I try to though, and I'm not that bad.. I just hate when people are annoying..and I'm just sick of the same thing happening and not saying something about it. So what I don't talk to people as much as last year. Is it any of their business anyway what's going on? Maybe I'm being mean now, but idk. I'm just sick of school and the people here.
Well, why not homeschool?
Why would I want to be homeschooled? Just so I can be away from all people for the rest of my school life? How would I meet new poeople or have the chance to make new friends? (not to dis tha homeschooled kids, a few are my good friends and are great people.) There's some things about homeschooling that sound nice.. but it's not for me.
Why is this so complex?
bye.
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9/29/08
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2 comments:
I love you Corie Paige...it's gonna be ok.
You are who you are and you are what God made you to be. I happen to love what God made. =]
You are NOT stupid! And really - what is "normal"? And who determines what is normal? Are they normal? Maybe they are weird for deciding what normal is...hahaha
Luv ya babe!! It's all gonna be okay.
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